Life update (not that anyone asked for it)

So this MCO led me to revisit my old blog which (sadly) only had one post from eight years ago. Reading that post made me think of where did my very 'passionate' and determined self go. If I could visit my past self, I would give her a hug because if it wasn't for her I wouldn't have made it this far. Well, not that far but I got into med school and currently in third year now. There's still a very long way to go and the road will surely be as rough (if not rougher) than what this past eight years have been. The challenge last time was to not listen to what other people had to say about my ambition but now, the biggest challenge is to not listen to the part of myself that is full of self-doubt. Just by reading my last post, I was so sure and certain of where I would end up but now I wouldn't have the same confidence and my sentence would end with "maybe" or "we'll see". One thing that I have now, that I didn't have back then is someone that think I could do it (per my last post). Don't get me wrong, I had people that rooted for me but I could still sense the little doubt that they have in me. But this person now, he sounds sure that I could and honestly nothing beats the feeling of having someone that has faith in what you could achieve. Sometimes all you need in life is someone to call you out on the bullshit you've been thinking, giving you nothing but straight facts without making you feel bad. However, with the faith that he has in me, I need to work on me believing in myself too. The challenge now is - to believe in myself. I would like to note down what he told me in this post and that is to not base my future career on what I achieve now, what matters is how I go about it later on (experience wise). I hope we make it, I hope I make it 🤞